Not so much about weight loss

I've been pretty sucky at keeping up with my weight loss journal.  Jimmy decided we couldn't afford WW anymore, but no worries i am still losing weight, i just need to start exercising.  I've started cutting meat out of my diet.  I limit myself to one serving of meat a week and actually that's more of a mind thing because i've found when i go to eat meat i am nauseous for the rest of the day/evening. 
My personal life has been crap.  I've tried really hard to not post anything too personal on the family blog, but i figured only a few people know about this one and i need to start writing down my feelings or they will eat me alive.
I am having a ridiuclously hard time right now.  I am not too sure if i want to stay in my marriage and feel the same way about church.  I hate where my life is right now and am just wishing it would all change.  I've tried to clue Jimmy in several times to how i feel about church and us, but he is very dismissive and ultimately thinks that i am just a shitty person and that if i think i am the only one who is unhappy i am sadly mistaken, but to suck it up and deal like everyone else.  My problem with that is if everyone is so darn unhappy, why then would that be acceptable?!  I am unhappy and i don't want to be!  I don't want to be stuck in a miserable situation because everyone else is.  That makes absolutely no sense to me!
We went to the Bishop last week and the first thing that was asked was if i had sought medical attention for depression.  Um, how about my depression is being caused by the situations i am in and NOT the other way around.  I was not so pleased with our meeting.  However, i did go to a doctor today to get a prescription for an anti depressant.  I've been put on Pristiq (50 mg).  I know that i am depressed and i know that if i want some relief in my everyday life i need to get emotionally stable enough to handle whatever is to come next.  Fingers crossed.